The Next night, I attempted to reconnect with the young man again in a conscious way.

I first tried watching my breath and then when relaxed, focusing upon the left side of my awareness, where I remembered feeling I was when I connected with him ever so briefly the previous night.

I had stopped at the post office to mail some packages to family members and used their machine to avoid the lines. It had been a stressful week, and I was tired and distracted.

Once that mission was completed, it was off to the next store to pick up the last three gifts. I found what I wanted quickly and easily and was thrilled to be finally done for the day before dark. At the check stand, I dug for my wallet to pay for my purchases and there was no wallet to be found! I had just gotten a new one two weeks before and I loved it. It was a faux snakeskin that I had gotten at Costco and it felt so yummy! For me, it was expensive at $25.00, so I was doubly disappointed.

My heart jumped into my throat. This cannot be happening – especially right now!

It’s fascinating to me that the latest explosion in the sex toy market is happening in the Northern climes of the Bible Belt. This could be a reflection on activities of those dis-employed in big factory regions, or that there is more playful and open attitude around sexploration, especially for women, evolving even amonst the bastions of temperance and sexual supression from Victorian morays.

I learned from speaking with Mandy, the Sales VP at Amberen, that it was contra-indicated to use other herbal remedies or progesterone cream in combination with Amberen, or it could affect its effectiveness. So, a week ago, I went off of any other relevant supplementation.

So, finally, I began Amberen this last August and I have now been on it a month. My results in taking the product were less impressive than the first time. The period I had been fearing never happened. Now, in September, one month later, the hot flashes are finally beginning to abate. After taking a single dose for two weeks, with seemingly no results, I doubled up on the dose as they suggest, which was two weeks ago. Just last night I began to feel the stirrings of my libido – a delightful surprise to know it is still there somewhere. Somehow I had forgotten…