My experience is that insanity is when we are overcome by “negative” emotions. These “negative” emotions are merely, initially, “red flags” to alert us to be watchful for self care. They are triggered because we have some memory or wound that has been repressed and stored within our bodies.

When we have an experience that we judge to be something we choose to avoid re-experiencing, we will often make some “decision” about that experience that we store in our memory and cellular structure. It is likely that we may also have concocted some sort of story for ourselves in order to make some sense of it. This story may be our imaginings around motivations for behaviour (another’s or our own) and resulting from our story, we make decisions or “programs” that we initiate in order to protect ourselves from this particular stimulus. These stories that we make up is often more painful than the original experience itself.  

And so, in our effort to avoid a painful experience, we are actually writing a program that not only keeps it alive, and makes it worse, but it multiplies! For from that initial stimulus thereafter, every time we have an experience that feels even remotely like that initial one, the program and story that we created will be triggered, emotional chemistry is engaged, and replayed, reinforced and filed away for future reference.  Therefore, the one experience becomes a network of pain that grows and grows like a tumor of stored, seemingly related experiences that we must watch out for.

This is an example of the pain body that Ekhart Tolle refers to in “The Power of Now”. Once activated, if not caught early enough to circumvent, this pain body takes over our consciousness and begins to run amuck with the various “protection programs” that we have consciously and unconsciously written, and like the cat in the corner, we are seemingly fighting for our very lives!.

When in this pain body, we are insane… not conscious. We are “running” these programs for self-preservation that are not conscious, thoughtful or loving. Do you remember a time when you experienced your own pain body doing acts, that you would not have done if you were in your “right” mind? Crimes of passion come from these programs… In the courts we call it temporary insanity.

We all have a built in desire to avoid pain. It does protect the body when in danger. However, our assessment of what is pain has become much larger than originally intended in our creation. Not only does it apply to experiences that we don’t like, but to parts of ourselves or feelings that we have been taught are “not acceptable” to the social milieu such as anger, jealously, fear.  All of these emotions are generated as a result of feeling threatened in some way.   So, when triggered for self-preservation, those programs discussed above that we have created to protect ourselves are then disowned and rejected, so we are caught in a catch 22!  

Animals and children, when they experience these types of emotions, instantaneously express them fully and shake them off, so that their bodies are cleared of the resulting energy (adrenline) activated in the body. It is true that children are wild creatures that can benefit from learning how to express these feelings in ways that do not damage others around them, however, I think that when we respond to the aggressions of others swiftly and decisively, often a valuable lesson in cause and effect can be learned, as well as some experience with self-empowerment. 

In our culture, we judge and deny our natural instincts for self-preservation/care on so many levels and we wonder why we are in such a mess! And so we stuff our feelings, lock away that very part of ourselves connected to our personal power and divine expression, and go to sleep, following others before us as we join “The Matrix” so that others may better benefit from our energy. As we reject those parts of ourselves, it is as if we stuff them away into a balloon that is ever present, but kept at bay.

When in our center and in balance, we are pretty good at maintaining this zoo around us as long as we are well-rested, fed, needs met and happy. However, when we are off balance, we are vulnerable and we don’t have the same ability to keep these monsters in their prisons. When we are triggered, they can escape and take over our consciousness, if we do not catch them early enough and then insanity is the order of the day. We are no longer in control of our choices. The “machines” or our renegade programs have taken over and are running things.

In this case, there is only one solution… Just as Neo chose, we must surrender and honor those feelings — and if we catch it early enough while we are still in the drivers seat, we can love those feelings through, expressing them consciously and in constructive ways, rather than letting them run us. I liken it to this graphic analgoy, not pretty, but accurate…. You can either be in the toilet bowl where you can see nothing but the shit all around you, or you can be sitting on the seat above, noticing with interest the corn you had for dinner last night. In one scenario, you are enveloped by the pain… In the other, you are the witness, watching the program, releasing the emotional charge, learning from it, so that if you choose, you can in that powerful moment rewrite it consciously to create an outcome you would prefer. In this case, the pain trigger is an opportunity to see what is stored inside that is ready to be released and re-worked for your greater benefit.

Those we deem “insane” diagnosed by our “health” professionals are merely those who have gotten caught in a loop of “negative” emotions, programs and habits of thought that from which they are unable to extricate themselves on any type of consistent basis. They may be “out of the box” anyway, such as schizophrenics, psychotic, autistics, indigo and crystal children who are unable to filter out the myriad, multi-dimensional information that is available. Unfortunately, this “enhanced” awareness that they have is judged by their image makers as wrong, unreal, etc., and so they judge themselves and get caught in paranoid and other counter-productive loops of chemical and thought reactions to their gift and it drives them insane!  

In the case of Multiple Personality Disorder, there is so much trauma and imbalance, so much rejection of these aspects of the self that are desperately needed for the ongoing expression of that being, that these balloons have taken on a life of their own so that they can have expression. The more we embrace all of ourselves, even the dark side, so that we can integrate and fully express our authentic selves in our truth, in constructive way, then we will not have these fragments expressing through reactivity acting in insane and destructive ways. The only way to transcendence is to go through the dark side and come out the other end with more of our personal power and Divinity intact. 

Copyright 2007 SHAMANESQUE ENTERPRISES

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