Holiday Musings….

I am in the second month of the first hiatus period on my Amberen journey (instructions say to take the product for three months and then take three months off before using again).  Since this journey began, there were months when I had a menses and months when I did not.  Interestingly, since the hiatus, I have had a period these last two months.

The symptoms in my breasts were rather extreme and unusual, much like when I began to take Amberen.  I was in mondo “high beam” mode constantly for over a week and my nipples were very sensitive.  For a while, I began to wonder if I could possibly be pregnant, but I dismissed it as my usual symptom for pregnancy was actually painful nipples when encountering cold, and this was not the case.  However, I was a little worried because even though I am pretty sure I can no longer get pregnant and have been more relaxed with partner around protection, given that I am experiencing menses, who knows?  Perhaps I should be more careful again.

The cramps, flow and usual discomforts during menses are back in full force, along with more intense bloated feelings, which I experienced when I first started to take Amberen.

As I have been through a relocation of my living space and financial stresses the last few months,  I am not sure if my weepy-ness is due to that or menses, emotional stuff or, more likely, all of the above.  But I feel as if I am constantly on the edge of tears at the slightest provocation.  Friends are telling me I am negative where I think I have been amazingly positive, even though I am on the edge of true exhaustion – I have been working hard with little recovery time.  I know I just need a vacation badly.

What an interesting time in my life for such an experiment, eh?

As to libido and sexual moisture, it is better, although not where I would like it to be.  Yet this also may be affected by the external stresses in my life right now.

As to pleasure within the vaginal area, it seems to be slowly improving, although with all that has been going on, we haven’t had the energy for much action lately.  During the move my Honey got a deathly lung infection – thankfully antibiotics have him on the mend, but his recovery is slow and he is still sleeping 16 hours a day!  Basically, we touch and attempt to give pleasure, but our energy is fleeting and we have no stamina…. Although he was very generous and gave me great head the other night.  My orgasm was lovely, kind of like the flash of a light bulb with a delightful afterglow.  And I can definitely use more.  However, I don’t know how soon I will have the energy to return the favor.

There are still some tender spots within that were there before, but their intensity is slowly waning and G-area massage sometimes makes a huge difference, sometimes not.  I have also found that when he is able to give me some massage in my hips, lower back, buttocks, groin and inner thighs, it makes a larger difference.

Thus far, over all, I am still relatively pleased with the experiment with this product thus far.  And I am hoping to see even greater improvements when the dust settles and life becomes somewhat more balanced again — will it ever?  Of course, I know it is all temporary… this too shall pass and life always takes us to the next best thing.  Overall, I am grateful this holiday season for the roof over my head, the love of my partner and the food on the tv tray.  I know that all is well and we are taking the leap to the next level of evolution, which includes the wild, sexual woman within me that is yearning to return!

Happy Holidays to you all!

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